The Man of Steel

While most of you do not know this man that I met during my travels, he immediately made an impression on me, was bluntly honest and I have the utmost respect for him.  For most of you, you know once you're in my inner circle, you're there for life and are considered family, but I don't think he knew this.  I won't go into the details as to why he's there as it's only important to me but I wanted to extend to you all that I feel like I've lost a person who I let in close to me (because that rarely happens), even if I knew him for a short period of time... he's someone you would have loved to have known.  He was a force to reckoned with, a lover of life.  One of the funniest men I've ever met and had such an honest and observant soul. While he had given me lots of great observant compliments, he also said that that I was condescending and sometimes a bitch but he loved that about me, I loved him ever since.  I only love people that are truly and respectfully honest with me and there are very few of you that I respect for being true to me.

Ever since I learned of his death this morning, I've been non-stop crying.  Part of me is trying to figure out why as I've only briefly knew him but somewhere deep down inside, I love this man and I wish that I had told him all the different emotions that I'm going through right now.  I had mother hen'd him.  Some of you know what that is and I don't take it lightly.  More like Mama Bear being Mama Hen.  He had gone through a lot physically since I last saw him.  But, he'd probably laugh at me and tell me "Buffalo!!" (only those who've been on the Halong tour will know what this is) while I drink my margarita while writing this trying to numb the pain.  I wish I knew him better.  I think you all would have liked him too.  I have amazing friends.  You would have welcomed him into your hearts just as easily as I did.  And he wouldn't have even known it.  Or maybe he would have.  He was pretty insightful.  He would have loved you all too.

Now I'm mourning the loss of someone that I barely know like he's somebody that I've know for ages.  But I felt like I really knew him.

His name is Dustin Steel.  He has an awesome name, like a super hero.  But he was more awesome than a super hero.  I hope to run into him again one day.  I'd like to know him again sometime down this crazy journey I'm on called Life...